The turtle Kurma

 showed up in my meditation. Now I think I understood.

It is the turtle who has showed up to carry the mountain in its back to save it from drawning down the sea, so that the inmortal nectar can be created.

It is the turtle who needs to show up in me and keep that golden mountain on her back, keep the earth, muladhara, in its surface, levitating stable so that I can reach immortality.

Vishnu is coming. 

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